Religion defying love for grand daughter

Mom always was too traditional and religious from the day one I know her. It was very hard to break those religious rules by any means. But I started hating these rules from age 11-12. I wasn't comfortable with idol worship and with a lot of other rules which didn't make any sense to me. Neither did mom answer as to why I need to follow them.

I stopped worshiping idols. It slowly turned into disbelief of god. My prayers were never heard. Neither did I know how would god fulfill them. All in all I stopped believing him, but always prayed to make "all" human beings live happily.

As the years passed mom could not maintain all the principles and started relaxing one by one. The main "being vegetarian" will and shall be followed. So we never brought even egg related food to home.

Chinni has been curious to eat egg since couple months. I have always wanted her to taste it and make it as part of her diet. But never dared to ask mom since I knew she would disapprove of.

Yesterday Chinni came to groceries shopping Long with me and my mom. She started grabbing all that she liked and putting them in the basket. Eggs couldn't hide from her eyes. She picked up a pack of 6 eggs and requested me. I denied. She started arguing. I straight away pointed her to my mom and asked her to get permission from her ajji. That was a smart move :)

My mom approved it immediately. I was little surprised since I knew she wouldn't deny anything for her grand daughter. Mom loves her too much. 

Rs 17 more worth than Rs 20

Chinni was returning from her long vacation, so I asked what does she want from pappa. She paused for few seconds and replied "I want chocolate". Got a Rs 20 chocolate yday. Today morning when she reached home, she saw it on the bed and grabbed it. The smile and curiosity in her face gives a sense of peace of mind and happiness :)

I got ready to office and moved on. Mom had not prepared breakfast since I was leaving to office early. I stopped at a darshini on the way for my breakfast. A kid, around 7-8 years old, comes to me and tells "I didn't have food since yday", with a sad face. I could make out he was hungry. I didn't respond. Finished by plate and took tea. The kid was still standing near the counter staring at the food. I paid for a plate of idly, of Rs 17, and gave the token to him. He exchanged the token for idly and had it.

I thought throughout my way to office, the Rs 17 idly was much more worth than Rs 20 that I spent on chocolate. Isn't it ? Like wise we have spent so much of money on only chocolates. Chinni wastes a lot of food which is takes it has tiffin to her school. There is so much food waste that we do and there are kids/people starve days together. There is so much inequality. The inequality has widened much more as the decades have gone by.

Life can't exists without this inequality. Assuming all are building constructors, then who is going to lay the foundation of the building ? Assuming all people are managers, then who is going to take up the work of a developer ? If everybody has equal amount of bank balance, why would somebody take up the ground work ? This is the reality of life. It's hard to digest but it's true. 

Equality can never prevail with each and every human being !!!

Cycling, a new hobby for the year 2014

N and Chinni were travelling on Friday night. I dropped them to bus stop and returned home around 11.30 pm. They are out of station for more than a week. So what do I do with the "freedom". My empty mind freezes when its free. But this time it thought of something constructive rather than killing time. It came up with cycling and since 14th was a holiday, I had good time to plan and execute. I posted on fb.

I hardly got couple of replies, but had made up my mind. Inquired bikes for rent but didn't work out well. So I visited Procycle, HSR branch. The bikes were too expensive, the least price was 19K. And renting out with them was also not convenient. Hence, I had to look for other solution. Returned back home, time was ticking.

Googled a bit more and found cadence90 which had bikes ranging from 10k. So decided to have a check. Headed to cadence90 on Sunday. Quite a small setup but they have good number of bikes for display. After understanding some basics of choosing a bike, I opted for the hybrid bike. And as per suggestion, I bought the least costing one, Rs 8999/- only.

I picked up the bike on Monday after office hours.

Started my first ride around 7.15 am. It was quite cold and sun had already thrown lot of light on earth. Here are some pics taken during my first ride.

The road was very bumpy, my bums had to sustain a lot of pain. The choice of route was bad. Apart from road it was not a good experience. I didn't enjoy the ride much. Back was paining, couldn't lean for a long time. Left leg knee started paining while heading back home. I took a lot of trouble to complete the 13-14km ride. Hoping these problems will get sorted out as I move forward.

And also hoping this would help me in my Marathon goal.

Another year 2014 arrives

Wishing myself a new year, so selfish ??? Not really, I want to wish myself so that I can be my best and the advantages reach my family, friends and foes.

2013 hasn't been a good one. Nothing much happened to write a whole post about. Comparing to 2012, which was such a high point in my life, its been very low. All the health issues, professional draw backs and its effects, not executing the resolution all adds upto the dull year.

1. I did participate in a marathon, 

2. Started learning swimming, which was the year's resolution.

3. Managing finance was a difficult part.

4. 2 trips Ooty and Goa

5. Chinni's dance performance, that was such an astonishing, surprising, delightful event.

6. Pintu's arrival, he has been such a darling and the affection he shares with both N and me.

Those were a few memorable moments last year.