The first word of the day

"Lets go" is what Chinni utters as soon as her twinkling eyes open. She is ever ready to step out of the house. Wonder how much enthusiasm is filled in her to explore the world. 

Weekends have been hard for me to stay at home.

I regret

I regret:

Not being a Chess grandmaster.
Not being a karate kid.
Not have spent enough time with my grandparents.
Loosing the painter in me, yes I had good drawing skills.
Spending those childhood days as a silent kid rather being naughty.
Not grabing the first onsite opportunity when I had just around 2 years of experience.
Missing out to be a photographer.
For travelling so less. I should mention the quote "Life is a book, If you haven't travelled you haven't read many of its pages".
Haven't visited the most amazing in India atleast like the Taj Mahal and other monuments, Rajasthan as in desert, Kashmir as in Himalayas, Simla as in Snnowy mountains, any Wild forest.
For have skipped learning swiming. I have it in my "Every year, learn an art" list.
Not being with N on the day of Chinni's delivery.
Not taking my parents to a foreign location.
Not been able to make Chinni sleep till now.

These are the ones which I should have done till now. May be there could be couple more, but not more than that. A few can be fullfilled, but a lot more can't be, for the time has passed.

Seriously, I couldn't stop hitting Chinni

These days Chinni is troubling so much, anything that comes to her mind has to be fulfilled, either be it at 6 am or 11 pm. Don't really understand what do these children think of. They have weird thoughts running throughtout the day.

For instance :
Pickup bathing soap, smell it and taste it.
Taste facial / skin creams.
Rub pain balm to wall.
Wash hair bands, clips and what not. She hasn't tried washing my mobile, touch wood.
Eat the shirt she is wearing and ask it to change once in 2 hours.
Always hunt for chocolates, gems and Ice cream (this one I can understand).
Want to step out of home at midnight.
Dance only on grandpa's bed.
Eat only the cream and throw off biscuit.

The list goes on and on. I would like to add more to this so that Chinni reads it to a have good laugh when she is grown up. Not sure if she is gonna curse me for writing all this and publish it in public.

Of all this what makes N and me angry is - she is never ever ever ready to sleep. Since a month, we have fought, like the freedom fight, to make her sleep if she has slept even for an hour in the afternoon and it went in vain. The last resort was not to make her sleep in afternoon, she can pull it till 7 pm and then starts dozing. No no, we don''t allow her to sleep at 7 pm, she is yet to have dinner. It takes around 10 minutes to get her out of that glitch. Once she has finished her dinner, she manages another 2 to 3 hours of play before going to bed.

There is so much to tell when the topic is Chinni, I totally forgot what is this post is about, why did I hit Chinni? As usual, Chinni was feeling too sleepy. The dinner was on the way and she was going all bonkers. She started throwing all that comes her way, unfortunately her sight fell on the charger, I had kept my mobile for charging. Within no time, her hands grabbed the wire and started pulling. I reacted immediately and caught hold of wire to avoid mobile falling on the ground. Chinni revolted strongly and pulled even harder.

What else could happen, my new mobile, yes I had to buy a new one after N had washed the previous mobile in washing machine, hit the ground. Well, that's when I couldn't control myself and hit her on her butt. Chinni looked at me with a sad face for 15 to 20 seconds and the cry burst ed like volcano.

This was the first time I hit her unintentionally. Arguments accepted, it was wrong act, I too feel the same. But there are times when things go beyond our control. It was silly. I have laughed at her other mistakes like when she painted wall with color pencils, couldn't control my angry on this occasion.

Hoping to withhold myself for many more such situations.