No time

I wonder if people in Bangalore really blog, they do and to my amaze how to they manage to get time ? After I have shifted to Bangalore, its been very tight schedule.

My routine is something very straight
6.30 am - wake up sid
8 am - start to office
9.15 - 9.30 am - reach office
1 pm - lunch
7.30 - 8 pm - start from office
10 pm - reach home (starting 30 mins early doesn't help)
11.30 pm - finish playing with Chinni, dinner and go to sleep

Where is the time to blog, finish pending stuff, talk to everybody at home, watch tv, catch up with friends .... ?

No, this is not the life I want to live. I got to do something ! but what ?!

A new era begins

Finally, the day has come to step out, to spend time away from home, away from parents, away from grand parents, to meet new people, make friends, learn new stuff, mingle with strangers, cope with situations, convey thoughts and what not !!!

Yes, it's Chinni's first day out at Playhome. I am so excited to hear how she spent 3 hours at the new place. Right now it's just been 2 hours and still an hour to finish up. And I am just keeping my fingers crossed to hear "everything went fine".

Wish I could leave her to Playhome today. There are going to be many more such stages going further, but this was as important as others. Hoping that I won't miss the remaining ones.

Chinni and Playhome

We can't keep Chinni confined to home anymore. Her desperateness to play, explore is killing us. Finally, we have found a good play home nearby. She will join in a day or two.

I want to be with her on the first day, leave her to play home, watch her play and take her back to home. Looks like its not going to be possible, my office timings and her timings are going to clash very badly :(. I wanted her to start on Saturday, so that I can be with her, my mom suggest "Saturday" would be a bad day to start. Although I am not superstitious, can't ignore it just keeping Chinni's future in mind.

Hopefully, she will start tomorrow i.e Thursday 21st October, 2010.

There is something missing in me

I feel this very often now-a-days, its when Chinni gets out of control, when I can't explain her what to do and what not, when Chinni goes and bangs her head to anything, may be sofa, bed, wall or even a cupboard, since pappa doesn't listen to her request, when Chinni gets adamant on chocky or doesn't want to eat food. I am simply not able to handle the situation properly. 

There is something missing in me because I am not able convey the good and bad message to Chinni. Or she is not in a stage to accept the good or bad thoughts ? Whatever it is, I am worried a lot.

Yday evening myself and N visited a play home thinking that Chinni can now spend some time in a play home a few hours in a day. To our surprise the lady has a PUG at her play home. Chinni was so excited, she said "bow bow" more number of times than the dog itself barked. After spending a good half an hour, Chinni was reluctant to come with me!!! She wanted to stay back and play. I failed to convey "its not the time, we will come tomorrow morning". There is something missing in me.

Today, the clock ticked 12.45 pm and I still at home. Wanted to quickly eat something and head off to office. But Chinni was happy jumping over me, because she had not seen me since morning. She started pulling me towards bedroom and show her favorite rhymes in laptop. I politely, calmly explained her "pappa needs to go to aassis, you go and watch". She got angry and banged herself to the cupboard in dining room. She has a swollen forehead now (nothing worrysome, but still ......). I again failed to convey a message. There is really something missing in me.

When DOCTOR became DAAKU

The other day, I took N to our regular doctor for a routine checkup, obviously along with us came Chinni. She was making all sort of nuisance and was going out of control.

Just to make her quite, N told her that "doctor will come and give her injection, if you don't keep quite". Chinni repeated "daakuuu ?" and we laughed like anything. Even the doctor laughed at her pronunciation saying "exactly".

That's not all. Doctor wanted to check N's bp and so opened the instrument to put the strap around her arm. Chinni started crying "byada byada" (meaning "no no") as if doctor was hurting her in some way. She stopped crying after we allowed her to touch and feel the instrument. Doctor was completely astonished and so were we!!!

Message of the blog: This time its a message from Chinni - "I love you so much ammi and won't allow anybody to hurt you"

3 hours to travel 25 kms

It was another rain havoc in Bangalore yesterday. I have experienced the heavy rains in the last 7 years, but had never suffered due to it. The day finally arrived.

I started from office around 6 pm. At 7pm, I was just 1 km away from the office, was giving a second thought to go back, swipe and start again, atleast it would have increased my login time. Well, I couldn't do that as well, was so badly sandwiched in traffic.

I reached home a few mintues past 9 pm.

Had dinner, checked a few mails and slept. Chinni was feeling too sleepy at 10, couldn't even play with her. Got up at 6.30 am, had bath, dressed up and started back to office. Damn, Bangalore life sucks!!!

Message of the blog: Stay close to office, preferably within 5 kms radius

Desperate

Hong Kong was a good place for Chinni to play and enjoy. She had enough open space to walk, jump and run. She finds all sorts of restrictions in Bangalore. I can see her desperateness to go out and play. She is definitely not enjoying the stay in Bangalore, but my dear Chinni "you got to adjust this from now, this is your home town and you might have to live here for a very long long duration".

She has been desperate from day 1 to go out for a walk in the evening. Her one hand is always pointed to the door, which communicates to the outer world.

I, myself, don't like restrictions neither I would like to pose them on Chinni, not at this age atleast. But they are inevitable. No playgrounds near my home, rainy season, too much traffic and ammi & pappa are too much occupied right now to take her out.

The coming days are going to be harder for her, since N has to join back. I am little worried as to how will I cope with the situation, rather how will Chinni cope with the situation. Because, it is Chinni who will have to wait from morning till evening to play with her ammi and pappa.

I am thinking of sending her to a play home, where she can spend some time with her aged people. Is it the right age ? Am I thinking the right way ? Definitely this age of Chinni is very difficult handle.